My stomach hurts

Irresistable

Happy
Alive
Vuluptuous
Entertaining

Amorous

Warm
Intelligent
Lovely
Devoted

Hold dear
Excitable
Affectionate
Remarkable
Tender

Missing you

Are you missing me?
I'm totally missing you.

I hate feeling like this. I just want to be with you.

Why are men so stupid?

To do:

1. Get oil changed in car.
2. Grocery store...food & pictures.
3. Tally up Susan's debt.
5. Pay Gannon (Merry Christmas)
6.Work out with Allison.
7. Lunch with Amy (?)
8. Christmas cookie party at Karen's.
9.Dinner at Jeannie's.

I'm hoping to get 5 or 6 of these finished. All would be FABULOUS!
Oh yeah, I'm planning to bake some bread, too.

Lonely

Longing to be held
Only you I want
No one
Else is
Like
You

Marc, the bowler

So, Jeff says to me today, "Marc and I are going bowling to shake off the cobwebs before we go with you!" How cute.

Jeff then says, "I told him what you said about losing and he says he can handle it, but I can't." When Jeff had suggested bowling, I had said, "Can Marc handle losing to a girl?"

I'm so glad that I have this to look forward to.

Today, I'm numb.

So, today I'm torn.
I was trying so hard to keep my dignity.
I'm not sure that I did that yesterday.

I'm going to wait until Christmas. (Which is only 6 days away-- egads!)

The gift

The gift was his favorite movie. He didn' t own it. The movie Airplane!

I bought if from Amazon. It came the day after we broke up. It was such a hassle to return it. Plus, I really wanted him to have it.

I gave him a gift

My gift made him feel bad
Although I wanted that
Really now I feel sad
Y can't I be mean?

Anyway, I got in a few shots
Letting him know how I feel
I wish things were different
Cause we were a match made in heaven
Eventually, I'll find someone new... I hope!

OB GYN

New doctor today.

I love watching the faces of doctors and nurses when they say, "What medication do you take? " and my answer is "No." "What kind of birth control do you use?" "None."

Today, I got a bonus when at separate times, I was asked, "Have you ever had an abnormal pap smear?" My answer has been, "I never had one before." THE SHOCK! THE HORROR!

Anyway, he says it looks normal, I'll know for sure in a few weeks. He says that we need to get me on some birth control so that we don't have an unwanted pregnancy. It wasn't worth telling him that we have no worries.

OH--the nurse at the desk asked me if this was on my insurance or my husband's. How rude! Single women go to the OBGYN.

Today's Acrostic

Marc
Andy
Ryan
Yogi

Allen
Leroy
Ian
Chad
Eric

Many men
Always options
Round the corner
Years may change me

Always wonder
Learning too much
I hate heartbreak
Can't wait for "the one"
Exhausted from looking

I thought this was kinda cool.

I wasn't ready

So, I really wanted to see Mike and MK's new house and the things that they are doing in it.
Yesterday, I thought I would "stop in" and see the progress.
I ran out, pulled in, saw Gary's car, but not Mike's truck. So, I called them. They had just left and were running some errands and would be back in an hour.

OK, so Gary said he would call me when they got back. I went to my parents' house to help my dad with a few things. Gary called and I went out.

Mike was the same guy. Joking, teasing, talking.
Gary was very reserved. As I got the tour of the house, he sort of stayed a step behind - which meant I couldn't see him. He treated me like we were buddies....not like he just broke my heart. When I was leaving, Mike said, "I don't know if I'll see you before Christmas, so Merry Christmas." Gary said, "Yeah, Merry Christmas." They were waving these friendly waves.

It made me so sad. It just hurt me so bad that it was the first time I'd seen Gary and he acted like nothing had happened. He didn't seem to care about me. I just wasn't ready for that.