Passing Tests

OK, so, Marc continues to pass tests.
I'm not testing him, but as we progress, I realize things.

I think I said before that when I cooked for Gary, he would say, "This is good, but it would be better if..., etc." When I cook for Marc, he says, "You are going to spoil me by cooking like this! I could get used to this!"

When I would send cards to Gary, he would say, "Why do you waste your money?" When I send them to Marc, he says, "Got your card... you are so cute! Thank you."

I do not have regular mood swings with my period, but at times, I can be irrationally emotional. This past week, for example, included an occurrence like this. Tuesday, I left school early to go to the doctor. I was finished there by 3:00, so I did some grocery shopping and headed to Marc's. I started some laundry and began cooking dinner. He had a crappy day at work and was so excited to come home and find me cooking. We had dinner (which he LOVED) and then retired to the couch. Soon, he was snoring. No problem, he is tired, I think. So, I continue laundry, clean up, run the dishwasher, fix the coffee for the morning, try to be loud to wake him up, put my pj's on. He does not wake up...well, he stirs and goes back to sleep. After 2 hours and me waking him up 3 times and asking him to go to bed, I've had it! The third time, he says, "The dog needs to go out before we go to bed" and rolls back over. So, I put the dog out, wait for him to get up, let the dog back in, lock up, go over to him and say, "OK, the dog is ready, the coffee is ready, I'm ready to put my clothes back on and go home." His eyes pop open and he says, "OK, I'm coming." We get into bed, and I start crying. He begs to know. Finally, I tell him that I went there to be with him, not to listen to him snore and do all of his household chores. Then, I blurt out, "Is this what it is going to be like for the rest of our lives?" He says, "No! This is the first time in 2 MONTHS that I've slept like that. You know I'll help you." We get through it, and later he asks if I'm OK because I've been emotional lately. I say I might be getting my period and we laugh and he says he thought so. We've been laughing about it for days now. I was upset that he was sleeping, which is OK, but was totally emotional and overreacted. He was so understanding about it. Patient and kind, too.

Anyway, that's another test. Gary would have told me that I was crazy and wouldn't have been kind at all.

This week, I have noticed my feelings turning towards knowing that I want to be with Marc for always!

Oh, and this week, he said, "I love you" and I said it back!

Did you know...

that you only have to take birth control pills for one week before they are effective? I was thinking I had months or at least one month! Good gravy! Good think I didn't tell him that I got it.

I'm tired of living in 2 houses.

So, we've been dating for 2 months.
I (by far) spend more time at his house than mine....but my roommate is not nice to him.

I'm so tired of having things in 2 places...well, of having nothing at his place. I refuse to live there (so, I just sleep there and put last night's clothes back on) and I've only got a toothbrush there. He is after me to take some things there, but I feel like that will really be admitting that we could be close to living together.

Every day he asks me to come over and says how well he sleeps when I am next to him. While I love sleeping next to him, I sleep best alone when I know I can sleep until 7:00 AM, not 4:40! He wants me to stay in bed and keep sleeping, but once I'm up, I'm up.

Yesterday, at his place, we had friends over. The men went to get the pizza and we women stayed behind with the kids. While they were gone, she said to me, "Looks like he is fixing this place up for you!" (He got new carpet and has been working on some home improvement projects while being laid off these last few weeks.) I've thought the same thing and addressed it with him. That is his ex-wife's house. She picked it out. I know that I spend a lot of time there and that I sleep there, but I do not think that I can live there.