Boys, Sex, Bridesmaids Dresses, My Body

So, Marc came over last night, too.
We watched Eight Below and sat under a blanket. It was so nice.
I love being held.
I love when he says, "Damn, you are so good lookin'."

He stayed until almost 1:00. He had to get up for work at 4:45....... I love that he stayed until I threw him out. Gary always thought he would turn into a pumpkin at 10:00 - he ran from here when the clock struck!

I love when he touches my sides....it makes me want to continue with my weight loss. I love the motivation.

Tracy and I went shopping today, again. She ordered her wedding dress and we chose what we THINK will be the bridesmaid dress. It is beautiful, but really hugs the waist. If you don't know me, I'm thick in the waist. Now, I've been losing in this area, but still thick. Again, motivated to continue to work out.

Can I be back at -65 pounds by August? Probably...that's about 18 more pounds. I've been working out like crazy and am totally motivated by the dress and by Marc's hands.

Question Girl -- your comment totally makes me like him more. If we break up, do you want me to direct him to you? (By the way, he knows NOTHING about computers. I had to teach him about Ipods and laptops last weekend. He thought it was a "labtop." He says it makes sense now!)

Sick

OK, so I'm sick.
I stayed home today.
On his break, Marc sends a text asking how I am.
After work, he sends a text asking if I'm OK and if I need anything.
Then, he asks if he can see me.

I love this!

I told him to come over. We had pizza, chips, and pop! And we cuddled on the couch...germs and all.

Every day

I like him more every day.
I've thought about this (and was asked by a good friend today) and I know that I'm starting to like him and not just the idea of him.

So, I spoke my peace....

Friends have been saying that I'm leading Marc on because I haven't been honest about my expectations.

So, last night, on the phone, I said what I needed to. I told him that I liked him and didn't want to hurt him, but had a few things to say.

I told him that church was important to me and I needed to be with someone for who it is important as well. He said it was important and that he would go. (Not exactly what I'm looking for, but getting there.)
Second, I told him that I'm saving sex for marriage. His answer: "OK." pause. "Sex ain't everything." Me: "I know, but it seems to be part of the deal with people our age and for me it isn't." Him: "OK."

So, I feel much better because I've been honest and not misleading about my expectations.

We talked about a few other things. He is worried that I'll get upset when the weather gets warmer and he'll be working 6 days a week and long, long hours. I told him that if that is his job, then that's his job. He worries that we'll have plans and he'll have to call and cancel because he has to work late. I told him that that isn't a problem, but it would be a problem if he called me to cancel because he was going to the bar with the guys.

He was amazed that I don't care that he hunts. I told him that I don't want to be told that I can't shop with my friends or things like that, so why would I care that he wants to go hunting. If he loves it, he should do it.

He says, "I hope that's true because I've lost a few girlfriends and an ex-wife over hunting and my job." I just laughed and laughed.

It makes me feel good that he is worried about that.