Birth Control

I hate that abstinence is the only 100% type of birth control. I hate that my boyfriend doesn't want to have sex with me because he doesn't want me to be pregnant.

MassageOil Part 2

Ok, tonight it was even better!
Good purchase.

MassageOil

...is WONDERFUL.
The warming kind. Oh, so delicious!
So relaxing.
It made me write tons of sentence fragments!
Love and lust and intimacy, yum.

Feeling sad....

Depression is setting in.....it may be that I'm overwhelmed.
I don't know how to dig myself out of this.
I can list all of the good things in my life, but still feel gross.
I need to take a bath, I think.

Thanks, God

Ok, I've been struggling with really wanting to have sex.
I'm sick. I mean it--I've got a cold.
Thank God!

Also, we went for Chinese tonight. Are you one of those people who says, "in bed" at the end of your fortune? Gary is. Listen to our fortunes:
Mine: Determination is what you need now (in bed). How funny since I am determined to save sex for marriage.
His: Do not put off till tomorrow what can be enjoyed today (in bed). How ironic--I'm trying to not have sex and his fortune says to not put things off!

Ironic.

SEX-- tired of waiting.

OK, Val, so you are the only one reads this, I think.
At one time, Carrie and Susan did, too---but I don't think they check it anymore.

ANYWAY--my married friends say that sex is over-rated. (Most of them.) It is so tempting. I'm sure part of the lure is that it is forbidden..... but MAN is it tough!

Usually, I am not the one who draws the line. However, today, I was. It was hard....because if I had wanted to continue, he totally would have. It is funny to me that I think I actually wanted to preserve his virginity, not mine.

I've got a long road of cold showers ahead of me.
I hate that.

Contentment

I'm so happy.
I'm really content with how things are now.

I want to sleep over.

I am so tired.
I know that I would be well rested if I could just stay with him and truly sleep.
If we could get in bed and go to sleep at 10:00 instead of being together on the couch until one of us forces me to leave, (much, much later than that) I know we would both be healthier.
We have to figure something out.

I said it.

I said "I love you" tonight.
He said, "Those are strong words."
He didn't say it back, but I told him that he didn't have to. He said that he wasn't quite ready yet.
I thought that I would be upset if he didn't say it back, but I'm just glad that I said it and that he knows.
MAS

Vulnerability

He knows me so well.....it totally freaks me out.
I hate that someone knows me inside and out, but at the same time, I LOVE IT!

What's my prob?

OH!
I'm moody, grumpy, want to cry, stress eating......
It isn't my time of the month.
What is it?
OH MY!
I think it is that I love him! I really want to tell him, but I'm so scared.
Aack. I've never never felt this way.
I need to get a grip!

New BF

OK, so now that I'm dating someone new, I feel like posting.
Here is a picture.....more to come later!
MAS

Weddings, Weddings

Well, over Labor Day, I went to another wedding. I asked my friend Tom to go with me. Here are the pictures. They include me, Tom, my friends Jeannie & Allison. It was a good time! I'm glad we went.

Tom & Mary Alice--not my favorite smile, but I'll take it. 

Who knows what was happening here? 

MAS, Allison, Jeannie--friends from work 

Mary Alice & Tom 

Mary Alice & Jeannie 

Kenny Chesney

Saturday night was so much fun. We went to the Kenny Chesney concert at Heinz Field in Pittsburgh. This is who played: Unkle Kracker, Pat Green, Gretchen Wilson, Keith Urban & Kenny Chesney. Here are some pictures from the fun, fun, fun night!

Tracy, Mary Alice, & Mandy....3 shrinking friends.